A Very Tiring Weeks

Pertama sekali aku ingin mengucapkan....

"Sorry for not updating my blog along two weeks"

Thus because i'm quite busy with my classes. Every single class session must go! Sometimes i need my self off alone so that memang tak ada masa nak update blog. Nak planned cuti raya pun tak sure lagi sebab maybe ada class 2 hari sebelum raya.. (T_T)

By the way, raya semakin dekat. Roh-roh yang pulang jenguk family semua sedih sebab dah nak kena balik kubur masing-masing. Aku pun sedih sekali. Mana lah tahu tak panjang umur nak jumpa next Ramadhan. Dalam tempoh 9 bulan (according to Islamic calendar, has 8 months before Ramadhan), anything can be happened. Sukacita, dukacita, anything!

Time is passess without conciously. My mom passed away when i was 21.. Now i am 23. Aidilfitri tahun ni, tahun ketiga tanpa emak tersayang. First time raya tanpa emak, masih ramai anak saudara a.k.a sepupu saya sebelah emak datang ke rumah. Second time raya, dah berkurang.. Third time raya kali ni, tak tahulah diorang ingat nak raya lagi ke tak kat rumah kitorang ni.. Macam dah 'jauh' pulak..

Tapi tahun ni, first day raya kat rumah tokmak. Sebab acu saya tak balik Kedah, kampung husband dia. Yeay!! So, tak boring raya 3 kerat je. Apa pun, kitorang kena memurnikan jugak malam raya kat rumah emak. Nanti emak tak lah sedih tengok rumah dia kosong..

Next raya, by that time maybe i have been engaged, my sister might be married and my dad also might be married with his new wife soon! Oh gosh.. I'm really truly not ready to accepting my new mother by this time.. Feelings of acceptance?? Might be at one day..

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I don't have any classes today. Glad! Yelah, today Nuzul Quran kan.. Selangor cuti. Of course UiTM Shah Alam pun cuti kann?? Uh-oh, coursemate aku ada kelas hari ni so..depends on lecturer lah jugak kann?? Hahaha!! Kredit to Puan Shamshimah kerana tidak mengadakan kelas hari ini. (^_^) But the 3rd of September, test will be held and i feel like wanna dead!

Goodluck for me.. And we will see what is gonna happened and we will see how many marks i'll get for maths subject. Unpredictable huh?!

I'm Not The Chosen One

Am i heartless??

No, i simply just refrain from my bad feelings..

But sometimes it's gonna fallin' as well

i'm just ordinary woman..not extraordinary woman who have a thick ego

i wanna talking down today..

YESS! I AM TRULY DESPAIR RIGHT NOW

What are u despair about, eyka?? "i don't even know.."

Saya kosong.. *ting-tong* jiwa kosong macam tin milo yang dah habis milo.

Allah..help me.. please, show me the way of ur light..

"I bear witness that no god to be worshiped except Allah and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah .."

I am muslim..

Ramadhan El-Mubarak

Ramadhan is back. Thanks to Allah for my longevity to see me with this blessed month. Fasting for the third year without my mom. It's became my tradition to visit the grave before starting the first day of Ramadhan. Glassy, faces, and sad when i think about those who are not in this world anymore. Last saturday, alhamdulillah, i could visited the grave even though unable to visited the day before the first day of Ramadhan (first ramadhan is supposed on wednesday, i guess)...

Somebody is leaving... Hooray!!

So, the main point here, i want to say HAPPY RAMADHAN to all muslims and don't try to deliberately to not fasting!! Love your parents. Treat them with love as long as they've in this world and you shouldn't forget them when they are no longer in this world.

-Salam Mubarak-